it's been staring me in the face

today i decided to stare back, 

to follow my heart and trust.

sometimes moments of clarity carry a weight, 

but perhaps that's what makes them truly clear, 

the reality that the right path is not always the easiest to travel.

more

the beauty in her curiosity delights me.

when i can be here, when i can be present i see it, 

but when i get sidetracked, 

when i let visions of distant places stand in my way, 

i feel lost. disconnected. displaced.

i want more.

i want to be with my children in the depths of their moments.

i want to support my husband in ways he never dreamed possible. 

i want to love myself.

i want to be here now, in every moment, 
absorbing the deliciousness of every breath i take.

and so...

tomorrow i will follow my heart.

rooted

"i choose you"

a wedding:

-stripped of the excess gloss and the glamour

-carefully chosen guests

-a meaningful location

-belly warming delicious food

-dancing shoes

-love, laughter, presence

with these things

a bride and groom, beaming with joy and passion,
 rooted themselves deeper into the ground that supports them

when

when was the first time you touched the queen anne's lace?

did she shudder with excitement?

share with you her wisdom?

did she inspire you?

inspire you to live completely, 

cycling with the seasons, 

living as fully in your bloom as in your rest?

if it's been a while, it's been too long

find yourself a field

let her speak to you

let her share with you the wonders of the world