efficiency

so much of my life has been dedicated to efficiency: paying bills on time, keeping up with the laundry, responding to emails as the arrive. i hardly ever missed the boat, and when i did, i had a good reason. i could understand logically that this was hard for other people, but personally i didn't get it. "just do it" and move on, that's how i rolled. well as life fills and stirs, i'm starting to understand better, 
i'm looking back and realizing what a luxury my efficiency really was.